Hurry up and wait

UNCONDITIONALLY YOURS

The night comes. Living by the sea in N.Y. is amazing at this time of year. I slow down, but is my life passing me by? I settle in for the night with a roar of the ocean to comfort me. I melt into its sound. I feel small in comparison. I dont think my girlfriend loves me anymore. I feel responsible. She tried so hard for so long but I think shes given up. No matter. She deserves better anyway. Why? Well, thats a long story. Even though I am a terrible boyfriend, I am her best friend. And she still knows it after all these years. I skipped work and we went to spend some quality time together. Man did I ever pick a good time to listen to her. She is so scared of life, yet so sure of herself. She is so beautiful. Like an untapped reserve. I find myself completely intoxicated when I am near her. Like the smell of the honeysuckles in late April, just after a sudden rain.